In the Beginning

Dear Mr. Net,

Greetings.

First of all, I wish to thank you for introducing me to the vast opportunities here online. I have eventually summoned up my courage and energy to set up this little "blog," a tiny platform on which I can stand up and stand tall. I can think my thoughts. Think them. Type them out. See them. Look at them. Have them right in front of me. For this, I thank you.

Setting this up has been a slow process with a bit of fear, some self-censorship, lots of expectations, and tons of excitement. Fear. Because I don't know what to say, especially for the very first time, but I realize that it helps just to spill it out. Perhaps that's why we scream when we're frightened. We frighten away the fright by freaking out, and I believe that the reason why I want to set up this blog has a lot to do with the fear I'm feeling inside me. I hope that by writing out about that fear I will somehow regain my courage, my sense, and my own self. It almost sounds like prayer.

I heard that praying doesn't change God. Praying actually changes the person praying. Perhaps posting a piece of writing here on this little blog doesn't necessarily change anything, but maybe it does change something. Maybe it changes how I see myself. Maybe that's the most fundamental change I need, i.e. how I see myself, in order to grow up as a man. To reach manhood. Yeah. I think that's it. Thanks. Thanks for telling me that.

Well, it's almost six in the morning here in Hong Kong, and I've been "working" on this blog of mine throughout the night. I suppose I should call it a "day."

Thanks.

Yours sincerely,
B. H.